How is it possible to be filled with so much excitement, and utter terror at the same time?
Happy for a change, yet so sad and scared...
I went to the last planning meeting at Clark's school today, and we have his official start date; MARCH 22nd.
I can't believe that in 3 weeks he is going to be starting school, all day school, coming and going on a bus and everything. I know being around the other kids is really going to help him, and I know he is going to love it. And I can't wait to see his school crafts, help out in his class room, and all that fun kind of school stuff. I am so so excited for him to start making friends!
(Or, at least that is what I am trying to remind myself over and over again.)
Even though I am excited for this new change, I can't help but be terrified at the same time, terrified and sad.
It's an end of an era.
So much is going to change, no more staying up late, and sleeping in late. No more fun picnic lunches, and swimming all afternoon. The lazy days are gone. No more cuddling on the couch watching our morning cartoons, all morning long. We are going to have to GET ON A SCHEDULE, yikes.
I am sad, I am going to miss him so much.
I feel so jealous of his teachers that are going to see and hear all the NEW first things he is going to say and do. I am worried about what will happen when he is sad... who is gonna hug and love him until he is better? What if he doesn't eat his lunch (he is so picky) and he is hungry all day? What if the kids are mean to him? What about his poor little blankies, that he is not going to be allowed to take to school...if that is not a sign of your baby growing up, I don't know what is (he loves his blankies, and takes them everywhere).
I never thought I was the type of Mom who would be so emotional over her child starting school... I used to long for these days, finally a little break for myself. To be fair, I did think I would have a couple more years to get ready for this day, we never really planned on him starting pre-school so young.
I am beginning to understand why some parents home-school their children now.
It is going to be so hard to let him go...
I am looking forward to the time Harry and I will get to spend together, brother free :) And I am pretty sure Harry is looking forward to that as well. I am also looking forward to less of Clark's messes and tantrums...I guess it will be a nice break from that kind of stuff. It will be fun to pick him up on early out days, and take him to the park. And our days off together will be so much more fun now. They are going to work on potty training him while he is at school, and that is definitely good news. So much to look forward to, more talking and learning, and growing.
I am excited, so excited...
just a little sad too.